Stefanie's Journal

Friday, December 24, 2004

1:04AM

happy birthday :)

Friday, October 8, 2004

11:40PM - ouch

tonight was interesting. party for fuzz's 17th. i split my toenail in half. it's pounding. ouch. i didn't cry. i did cry after the math test however. it's annoying. have you ever gotten a test with material that is totally do-able, but then there are a million (excuse my hyperbole) questions!? sigh. i realized how nerdy jericho students are tonight. we all sat around watching the debate (from start to finish) while the BOCES kids upstairs were busy playing poker and tearing $8 thongs. it was interesting, it put things into perspective. "why the fuck are you watching the debate, you can't even vote!" - BOCES kid (he was either challenged or high). it's sad to think that he is the average high school student. so perhaps watching the debates isn't tantamount to the OC (not that i watch that show, or any other tv show for that matter), but as a mature american - one that will be voting in the near future - it's necessary to be aware of what is going on. typically, i'm not one to talk about apathy. however, concerning this issue, i do think it is important to be informed.

the work is crazy this weekend. and monday i have to go to the dentist :(. and wednesday i start track, i hope. we shall see how the toe feels. that would be so lame if i couldn't start track because of my TOENAIL. my brother is home. he is making me go shopping with him tomorrow. it's our thing. it really is the only time we actually communicate. whatever, doesn't bother me.

i hope everyone is doing well ... sarah, sharon, avital, lily. i haven't talked to some of you in a while. i'm going to bed soon. goodnight all.

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Monday, September 27, 2004

9:53PM - yww withdrawal months later

oh my god, it was like a smack in the face today. i swear. all of a sudden i was listening to "dreamland" and i remembered packing up the last night. and dancing in the suite. and all of the emotions i was feeling rushed back to me. i remember feeling so careless, and proud, and i felt the most horrible feeling of regret. regret that i was leaving the most perfect place. it really was. perfect is the best way to describe it. god do i miss it. i even did the lily dance tonight. i don't know why i feel it so much tonight. it's crazy. i would absolutely love to go back next year and have nothing change. unfortunately, i realize that probably won't happen.

in other news, junior year is busy. lots of work. lots of busyness. it's nothing i can't deal with, but it is a step up. this year i've started writing for the newspaper. it's fun so far. i have a lot of enthusiasm to write still. perhaps it's just beginner's excitement. i hope not. my first article was too controversial to be published. i had to water it down to practically nothing; it's a shame.

social life has been pretty good. friends are good. i'm happy. i really can't complain about anything now. i've been doing well in school, there hasn't been much drama. life's been serene in a totally unserene manner.

i'm looking foward to the last sweet 16 this friday. it should be fun. i need to dance. i haven't in a while.

i hope everyone is doing well, especially those whom i haven't talked to in a while. i've still been thinking about you, trust me.

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Monday, August 16, 2004

10:33AM - bonjour!

i'm in paris! what a lovely city. it's beautiful. i will post pictures and details about the trip when i get home (in a few more days). i miss everyone and i shall see you soon. i hope you're all doing well. au revoir!

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Friday, August 6, 2004

12:46AM - good day

+ hung out with sarah and sharon today. it was fun.

+ went to aleks's house, celebrated his 17th.

+ burned a bunch of sarah's CDs (tbs, fob, nino ni$e, yellowcard, etc.)

+ only a couple more days until i go ...

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Wednesday, August 4, 2004

11:42PM - the past few days ...

a lot has happened the past few days. which is good. i like when a lot of things happen. it may suck at times, but it's better than nothing happening. yep. it means productivity. i've been running at the track (and i even threw shot today too). and yesterday i saw fight club for the first time. i enjoyed it very much. i also went shopping yesterday, which was fun as always. i managed to get an $8 skirt from urban, originally $42. how good am i? i know. mhmm ... and today i went to lunch with granny, where she proceded to call me "obnoxious," sigh. whatever. at least she didn't talk about how ugly i am this time. so just as i was beginning to feel good about myself because i'm one day away from being done with bio ... josh tells me that there is a 10 page limit to the notes. FUCK ME. my notes are already 15 fucking pages, front and back. great, woo fuckin hoo. now i get to edit and re(hand)write ALL my notes!! another 2+ hours of work. great. oh yeah, and tonight i discovered that my dreams will never come true. you see, i had to write this thing on strong opinions i have at yww. easy assignment, right? not for me. i don't have opinions. i am the girl who believes the same thing as the last person i talked to. or maybe if i'm feeling mischevious i believe the exact opposite of the last person i talked to, just to disagree. so anywho, this was a rather hard list to compile. but here it is. (if you're not interested in reading it, just read the second one. that is the only one that is actually releveant to my fatal dreams).

List of Things I Have a Strong Opinion About

-   people with strong opinions need to loosen up a bit
-   all bugs with stingers or menacing appearances (and no ecological benefits) should be exterminated
-   race should NOT be considered in college applications to “diversify” a campus, better school reforms should be installed early on to allow for people of diverse backgrounds to get into a school based only on academics
-   the SATS should be removed or made more academic; more than just math and verbal
-   illegal drugs should not be used for medicinal purposes, we have good prescription painkillers for that. Making weed legal will just put more on the market.
-   People who dress differently just to be different are stupid and need attention
-   ADD or ADHD (or whatever it’s called nowadays) should not be so heavily medicated in children, it was never a known illness before. Every time some kid is fidgety they pop some Ritalin. What kids aren’t fidgety? c’mon.
-   Going along with my last comment- everyone thinks they are so messed up, they're all medicated for depression or anxiety and they see doctors and psychologists to help them .. everyone just needs to chill.
-   You’re not a good writer if you can only write about that one thing that defines you (ex. Black, purple, gay, striped, etc.)
-   Dave Mathews band is overrated

yep, so that's the list. right. so then tonight i read

"Phylum Arthropoda [which includes insects] is by far the largest of the animal phyla. More than 1 million species of insects and other arthropods have been classifed to date, and estimates of the total number are as high as 50 million. It has been estimated that over every square kilometer in the temperate zone there are, at certain seasons, some 20 million individual arthropods, layered in the atmosphere like plankton."

well that's just fucking lovely! and i love the way it is put, layered in the atmosphere like plankton.

hah, i'm talking to james hall. ya know, cornelia's brother. too funny.

au revoir. by the way, have i told anyone how much i miss yww lately? because i do. A LOT. sigh. all this "missing" is so futile. it does nothing for me.

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Sunday, August 1, 2004

1:08AM - blah

lately i've felt kind of ... alone, i guess. it seems like no one is around really. you can't blame me though. i just left the 8 most awesome people i've met in a while and have had minimal contact with them since. my boyfriend has been upstate for the past month and will remain there for another 19 days. one of my best friends is back at brown and i don't know when she is getting back or what she is doing there and i haven't talked to her in days and in general, i just have no idea really what's happening with her lately. i feel like a lot has changed in the 3 weeks i've been gone, and i'm a little left behind. and there's a lot of people i haven't seen since i've gotten back, or actually, i haven't even talked to. i don't know. it's just annoying. and of course, i haven't been with sarah or sharon since i've gotten back. and that's annoying. i've been seeing a lot of uma though, which is really cool. ahh, maybe i'm just being over sensitive.

anywho, tonight was fun. i went to see harold and kumar go to white castle with uma, christina, aleks and farzan. (it was actually really good!) then we went to bell's house and hung out. and he showed us a video he has of me giving reema a lap dance at kim's sweet 16, heh. fun times.

i'm leaving in a week for italy/france. i'm very excited, though we're not staying as long as i'd like. my grandma was talking about how she has a lot of cousins in sicily and that we should visit them. unfortunately, we are going to be in northern italy and won't be able to this time. although my mom seemed pretty interested and said we'd have to do that next time. next time. that is definitely good terminology. there will be a next time. that would be so awesome though, to visit and stay with family i've never met before that actually live in italy. that would be so cool!

goodnight all. and here are my pictures from UVA. enjoy :)

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